it seemed to be like I could
things were simple and I was not quiet there yet
while you were there all the time
I got stronger but I’m still weak
weak like I’ve never been before
every steps that you led me to
just got me even more puzzled
the past killed..
no sign to adjust..
so until the 355th day I will remain
to be relieved.
wasn’t it you wanting it went that way
creating and letting a human being hurted
i inhale all the smokes you blew
and you ignored
you ignore
and you will ignore..
and deep down inside you,
one beat knocks..and it still does..
don’t you hear them crawling
and walking
one step nearer to reach you
simply as a you just walk away
to nowhere..
i just starr at you keeping my mouth shut
and inhale more smokes
but i keep walking beside you
you dance i watch
you talk i listen
you fall i stay there
you don’t need me, or them..
you die i cry..
take care of your feelings
coz they will be your thoughts
take care of your thoughts
coz they will be your words
take care of your words
coz they will be your doings
take care of your doings
coz they will be your habbits
take care of your habbits
coz they will be your character
take care of your character
coz they will be your destiny
my all, I come to you in a state of affairs
I beg your pardon,,
grieving for my sins,,
exnorate me.
in you I will let off,
all that loath myself.
my soul is given to you,
now and eternally.
I yearn for you appearing in my inside,,
and its life.
accepting all as my all.
cure me,,
vary me and grant me no weakness.
angel, bathe me your blood
and your spirit will fill me
I’m keen on you
and blissful.
I shall go with you,,
with all my all
woke up late at night
and stayed up till early in the morning,,
haven’t experienced how the sun goes down
but never missed any sunrise,,
all say one day has 24 hours,
well for me it doesn’t play any role..
I exprience any of these days with laughters,
but I am numb..
my life has become numb.
if Forest’s mom, Ms. Gump, once said that life is like a box of chocolates,
then I’d rather say life is like sitting on a rollercoaster (thx to Mr. Keating)
up and down and up and down,
but now I’m trapped in a long track going slow and straight..
starving for more sunrises,,
and sunsets..
even more the sunshine..
the track will be going up,
or down..soon..
it’s a secret from above..
so Ms. Gump I agree with you,,
life is like a box of chocolates.
you will never know,
what you will get.
